Grief that can't be spoken

Just heard a sound of sea waves touching beach sands.
Peaceful.
And funny how i found this meaning of peaceful:
Feelings of completeness, contentment, happiness, joy and love are thought to destroy negative emotions and negative feelings, love being the most powerful. To be peaceful is to feel complete. And usually, a feeling of true completeness comes when you connect with that special person that completes you.

Enough. I miss my busy bee...
Bzzttt.

nintendo

who says life is not a nintendo game?
life is a nintendo game,
because you sometimes give a second chance,
third chance,
four or maybe five.

until you get tired,
and turn off the game.

no?

after all

today,
i found that i could never go to a cinema, watch an action movie, without you sit down next to me.

it's still you after all.

Anyone else but you

You're a part time lover and a full time friend 
The monkey on you're back is the latest trend 
I don't see what anyone can see in anyone else but you
I kiss you on the brain in the shadow of the train 
I kiss you all starry eyed, my body's swinging from side to side 
I don't see what anyone can see in anyone else but you
Here is the church and here is the steeple 
We sure are cute for two ugly people 
I don't see what anyone can see in anyone else but you
The pebbles forgive me, the trees forgive me 
So why can't you forgive me?
 I don't see what anyone can see in anyone else but you
I will find my nitch in your car 
with my MP3, DVD, rumple-packed guitar 
I don't see what anyone can see in anyone else but you
Up, up, down, down, left, right, left, right, B A start 
Just because we use cheats doesn't mean we're not smart 
I don't see what anyone can see in anyone else but you
You are always trying to keep it real 
I'm in love with how you feel 
I don't see what anyone can see in anyone else but you
We both have shiny happy fits of rage 
You want more fans, I want more stage 
I don't see what anyone can see in anyone else but you
Don Quixote was a steel driving man 
My name is Adam, I'm your biggest fan 
I don't see what anyone can see in anyone else but you
Squinched up your face and did a dance 
You shook a little turd out of the bottom of your pants 
I don't see what anyone can see in anyone else but you...

(The Moldy Peaches)

Tidak ada sesuatu yang mudah.
Tapi bukan berarti tidak patut diperjuangkan.

Because if it is too easy, it is probably worthless...

Cheer up! :)

(advices from brother and twitter)

end of year 2012

Hmm... 2012.
Tidak terlalu spesial tapi sebenarnya banyak yang bisa disyukuri.
Rasa senangnya dan rasa sedihnya.
Rasa takut dan rasa lega.
Mencapai mimpi dan gagalnya mendaki lebih tinggi.
Pergi liburan atau hanya diam di pojokan.
Semuanya ada. Seperti tahun-tahun sebelumnya.

Nggak tau mau nulis tentang kilas balik 2012.
Tidak terlalu spesial, yang penting tahun ini bisa hidup sehat.

Resolusi 2013? I don't really know in detail.
Paling lulus kuliah S2, dapat kerja yang baik, dan (mungkin) menutup akhir tahun dengan menikah. Well, I'm not sure, sih hehehe...
Tapi above of all, saya lebih berharap supaya selalu diberi kesehatan dan diberi waktu untuk menyempurnakan kekurangan.

*tsah* *batsah* *batsah* *shimizu*

Happy new year, bloggers!

small things...

i used to love rainy days
not until i met you.

sigh.